POINTLESS POST!#@!#%^&*

Don't ask,,, the pic doesn't relate... I just thought it was cute... so, Brace yourselves... WARNING! INCOMING POINTLESS POST!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

so................................. was cleaning my room... and tidying it... and decided to sort out my neat piles of terribly organised (I just put stuff on stuff) mess... and found letters, yes as in the ones little girls write to each other when they're in high school ... yeah so... they're from when I was in high school (last year)... and they were all addressed to me (yay I was loved once upon a time!) ... I mean how strange that were not addressed to someone else!... I'd totally expect letters that were not mine to be in my room... ANYWAY!.. so there they were, so I read them, I wasn't being rude, they were mine anyway...

they weren't interesting,,, they were rather Lame... some funny... all about Boys... is that seriously what occupied the minds of the youth I dealt with in high school?.. the answer is yes, and it was all the same thing "I wonder does he notice me" "I get butterflies sometimes when I see him" "I like him so much it scares me" "it's frustrating that he doesn't notice me!"... blah blah blah!... this is good though, it's growth... it's the stage at which they needed/need to be... and in truth... watching older versions of these young ladies, nothing much has changed  and I don't suppose anything will... and it's not a bad thing... they're searching for "the one".. so eager... and the gushing and concerns they have will never go away till they find "the one"... well at least we hope the gushing won't go away, and the concerns - unfortunately- will be replaced with new ones rather than completely vanishing... the only thing that changes is... a certain maturity when dealing with these developing crushes over the years... you learn to be more brave, more patient... more understanding...

The most fascinating part of all of it... is the growth though, the journey... seeing the difference in these ladies over the years,,, it wasn't like they changed... it was like... more detail was added to them...
it made me understand why journals/ diaries,,, song books... all of why they were used and kept... sure it helps people rant out stuff - I prefer shouting - but... it's the looking back... that's the important part - why?!?!?!... because it helps you see that you had times where you thought you couldn't live you felt so much pain, and reading it, you can see the fears you had.. but being older you can see how small they were... and this is good, because it helps us see that the problems we face now... we'll be able to look back on... and be ok with... we'll be able to realise, we'll still be around in ten years, and we'll be ok in ten years...

so ya.... food for thought... I wish I grabbed all my letters back after writing them so I could have read them now... would've made me laugh I bet...  :)

Anyway, this has no doubt been a pretty pointless post... filled with nothingness... but, I still enjoyed typing it... :)

so... this is ButtonGirl Popping in.......................... and falling off this coat..... peace...